Funny thing, when you become close to someone sometimes you mistake the feelings you feel for something that is not what you really feel.
Like the ten minutes I thought I like-liked the Boy. Weirdest three days of my life.
I mean, you spend your entire friendship joking around about how freakishly well you get along and how people assume you're dating, and yet you always stop short of actually having that conversation about the awkward feelings that ARE CLEARLY THERE. No, you stick with the plan: ignore and deny. Which we do quite well. Granted I only have my side of things and I really don't know how he feels and again it's not like we're ever going to talk about this but, for sake of the rant we'll say the feeling is semi mutual.
But the start of this feeling is all his fault and I will maintain that until the day I die. It all boiled down to overhearing a snippet between Boy and his roommate. It was dumb of us to think that saying goodbye during a baby bar crawl would actually be a good idea. Don't get me wrong, I had a blast and got quite drunk, thank you two dollar Tuesday, and great game of Sink the Biz.
I had to tune my cocktail ears on at exactly the wrong time. And that's when I heard it. (For the record I heard this totally out of context so I have no idea if this pertains to me, and on that note I was drunk and therefore also do not know if this is what was really said.) In context with the parenthetical, as a human I understand things through my own lenses and therefore must have been projecting my own drunken feelings into the situation. BUT IT'S STILL ALL HIS FAULT.
Anyway I thought I heard him say and I quote "Dude, I mean do you think I should go for it?"
and then the response " I mean do you think it's worth the risk"
Coming up: WHAT THE EVER LOVING FUCK IS GOING ON? A mutual friend asks me out, and resolution of feelings?
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